Friday, November 16, 2007
&you heard the resounding cries, right at your ear

you say youre better off that way, i second that. and so am i, better off this way. or so everyone thinks so too.
some mistakes made, are probably regretted. look at it this way, if we never did make that mistake, you wouldn have found him, i would never have thought bout this either. this heartache is killing. yes it is. but maybe its all for the better.
i miss you, yes i do. like never before i'd think you'd mean so much. i never knew we'd come this far. but seeing this love, we couldve easily made it far. but maybe we needed more time together, or more trust, or smtg i should have done.
i love you, yes i do. and its so overwhelming, i could just fall on my knees and faint into the netherworld. i never thought i could love someone so much, ever. but now i know what you mean to me.
i need you, yes i do. now, more than ever. you know it too, how much this is killing me. you said you left me for me to live life properly, but no. after youve left, i've changed so much. all the drinking all the smoking. all the notgoinghomes, all the late nights out. all the not-studying and distractions with playing.
Do you remember, that i was nothing like this before? i hated smokers, i never drank like it was my life-giver. i never played like it was my last days on earth. but you couldve been there to change it all. you know you knew how to, you laways manage to make me do things right. but you didnt. you still chose to go, even when i was on my knees. did you turn your back to give that last look? no you didnt. you walked right off. so hey, is this love?
if this is, then i'd rather not have loved, than loved and lost
is this enough reasons for you to listen
is this enough pain for me, for you to come back, for me to live
is this enough distance, for you to see how much you mean to me
remembering, everything about my world and when you came. wondering if the change you’d bring means nothing else would be the same. Did you know what you were doing? Did you know? did you plan to make this mistake and leave thereafter leaving me to bear this all? did you plan on leaving right from the start?
and you'll say you'll expect me, of all people to understand, but no, i dont understand.
i said i would change, but you didnt bother listening to me.
my love, its cold inside, where have you gone?
Y Sweet Catastrophe 9:59 PM